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blogging, goodbye, Online Writing, pain, relationships, Wordpress
for every season, change is inevitable.
It has come to my attention that not only what I have written in this blog has affected my relationships but also caused those I’ve written about shame, fear and disloyalty.
It is for THOSE REASONS SOLELY that I will be discontinuing my postings over the next month and then after an allotted span of time will discard all prior posts.
Though this has been a great endeavor, novel and bursting with new-found inspiration from my fellow soon to be fellow ex-bloggers; a project to occupy my meaningless existence and an out let for bearing my deepest feelings and emotions; it was not meant to be.
I will continue my usual postings for the next few weeks. I truly appreciate all of those who have followed me, commented and engaged in dialogue. I will not stop reading your posts.
I just am unable to write about what I experience in my life, which obviously but not maliciously affects others and my relationships with them.
~ an amateur one time blogger
Wander a bit, it might make you wanna come back
some times the thing we are looking for is right where we were, just not as sorted or safe or predictable as our selves-stuck-in-our-comfort-zone would like it to be. So yea, go on and do what makes you happy. And I will look forward to the day when expressing your afterschool special’ness’ makes you happy again 
XOXO!
Thank you
P.S: I really do enjoy reading your posts
Thanks. I may wander into less introspective negative posts into positive pretty posts… There is so much beauty out there. Perhaps time to rediscover and share that?
As Paolo Coehlo says WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
Thank you for reminding me of that.
Sometimes I’m strong, I’m naturally willful and don’t care what people think of me. Sometimes though when I’ve “lost myself” forget who i am, i allow myself to see me through other peoples’ eyes which is terrible.
The other thing, these are my friends, not strangers, people who love me or loved who I was. It con concerns me when they say critical things because it’s often out of the goodness of their heart. They know I’m not acting like “me” and I have to figure out how to get back to the quirky, not universally likable person that my dear friend knew and appreciated.
yeah…I’m getting that… doncha just hate shit like that?
Can anyone tell me where the ‘dislike’ button is? I dislike what you plan to do. So, if I dislike it and others here dislike it, then is what we say less valuable than what those others in your physical life say?
Fear and shame? Disloyal? You said relationSHIPS? Maybe those folks should stop reading.
Writing is good for you, even if it lets out bad thoughts and feelings. Better the bad be let out with words, than in reality. Obviously, you benefit from connecting here. We all do. Give it up and you isolate yourself with the relationSHIPS.
I don’t think that’s the way to go.
I like the post just because I’m sad
but obviously it is your decision
Thank you I truly appreciate your support. Maybe I won’t stop writing maybe ill go “private” maybe curb the snack talk of my friends…. Who knows what the future holds!
Well shit! Obviously I am not going to “like” this post as it makes me sad.
You know that I enjoy reading your posts-good, bad, and in-between. Should you stick to your guns, and based on what you have written, I don’t see why you won’t, I will miss reading about you, and your experiences. I have a dozen different reason why I think you should keep on writing, but I understand that you are going through a rough patch and probably want some space. I hope you change your mind.
We’ll see. I in constant battle w sticking to my “true” open and honest self and the damage that honesty sometimes causes.
Some of my better posts were ones that caused the most harm because, most likely they were gut wrenchingly real… I’m very conflicted! But super happy to have your and everyone’s support!
I understand. I went through that a lot when I was writing before the blog. Not saying the blog hasn’t caused a problem or two, but I am used to the shit storms that get caused and as long as what I wrote is true then I am content to let the shit storm fly around me. Glad to hear you are getting support, you write well.
Yea man you def put out some… Edgy material – which I LOVE, waaay more so than I, guess if you can handle it … Maybe I can too.
Edgy, I just write about food, sex, and life. Nothing edgy about that.
Lol sorry, I guess I didn’t come up w the appropriate word I had meant to describe it.
I like edgy, much better than the adjectives that usually hear or get called.
How many people know that you write this blog?
Too many. Basically everyone I know socially and much of my family. Probably a mistake doing that in retrospect…
say it isn’t so, j. your blog is one of the wonderful blogs i actually read no matter how long the posts can be sometimes
i really thought that the complications you mentioned can all be avoided by writing anonymously, but apparently not. you know that not long ago i posted a photo/quote titled “Nothing Sexier” which i later made private due to the contrasting responses i received from readers. it was a provocative post to be sure but i took it down because some readers saw somebody who wasn’t me. perhaps, you can do the same. just thinking. we all need an outlet. and, sometimes, the things we write are the very things that keep our wits together. it’s the next best thing to screaming our heads off to release some steam. in any case, i hope you’ll stay. take care.
That’s… Really nice to hear (I know I can tend to drag on, one of my worst qualities as a writer).
So, what’s up with the “private” thing? What does making a post private mean? Who can and can’t see it? That is an interesting idea…
making posts “private” essentially means only you can see it. and i am referring to your posts which you felt caused “shame, fear and disloyalty.” sometimes we can write things we don’t really mean or things that are easily misunderstood. sometimes we even write words we meant at the time but are no longer true at present. there is no shame in taking them down for your own consumption or sending them to the trash bin for good.
your posts tell us, your readers, stories — often stories that we ourselves are afraid to tell. you must take pride in your uniqueness. heck, that is why i’ve been reading you. wander off, as foroneplease said or take a break. but stay.
btw, what liana said is also another way of looking at it.
I shall try! I’ve kinda lost my own identity… Which is odd but it makes me more sensitive to what “others” think