I hate you.
I hate you for talking to me.
I hate you for playing games with me.
I hate you for the empty compliments.
I hate you for describing the life I so badly want.
I hate you for saying you wanted that life with me.
I hate you for saying you could not give it to me.
I hate you for writing all the things I want a man to feel for me.
I hate you for reminding me I don’t have any of that.
I hate you for pulling me out the cave I’d built to protect me from wanting what I can’t have.
I hate you for being a liar.
I hate you for being there.
I hate you for taking the time to talk.
I hate you for making me end what was obviously unhealthy.
I hate that I feel more pain now even though what I did was meant to make me better.
I hate that it made me see so clearly how alone I am.
I hate that I was nothing for you, that without me your life will go on, unfazed.
I hate that you probably do not care what effect all this has had on me.
I hate that I never want to leave my bed out of fear I may connect with someone who again will leave me.
I hate the energy spent on this.
I hate how exhausted I am from it.
I hate you.
I hate that I hate me at this moment.
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Sounds like love to me! Have you read Catullus’ “odi et amo” fayropetrope?
God don’t say that!
Though I’ve always said you can’t hate someone you don’t love or care about. Bc … Well you just wouldn’t care enough to hate them… So im pretty much screwed eh
I have been giving this comment some thought. We all have heard the saying “The opposite of love is indifference”, but I haven’t really come across a similar saying regarding hate. So, I did a lil internet research (aka antecdotal and not really reliable, peoples opinions basically) Here are some links that address this:http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_the_opposite_of_hateit says ” I’d say indifference. In both love and hate, you care about whoever/whatever you’re loving/hating (although in different ways). ” and interesting and true:”Additionally, love relationships break apart because of indifference much more often than hate” http://www.keen.com/CommunityServer/UserBlogPosts/Brigid_Bishop/Hate-is-NOT-the-Opposite-of-Love/119993.aspxThis person disagrees:”Hate IS the opposite of Love you say? I disagree. Vehemently.”"Hate is not the opposite of Love, Hate is Love in it’s angriest, ugliest form.” – bold and interesting observation Also, most of the post is about what I hate about MY life and the person made me realize what was missing from it, not so much the person himself (though I did admittedly say “I hate you”) – this is, I do accept somewhat of a rationalization, but, fuck it. lol
I have DEFINITELY been here :/ hugs
Thanks lady!
I think we all have at one point or another.
I’m goin to six flags. I need pure adrenaline like you have NO idea!
nice!!
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This poem reminded me of Candlebox’s song “Cover Me” and I like that song and your post;) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X4EPn1FacaQ
Thanks
I’ll listen to it now.
Thnx for the vocab lesson. Will def look it up. Seems a common theme in literature … And life.